Finally just letting it all out
It has been a crazy week to say the least. I have all but changed my entire world in the small ammount of time given in this single week of chicago life. I finally let it all out I told my mom that I just was not going to date any guy that she set me up with "I am sorry mom but I love women" "Yes mom I said women" "No I did not get the gay jeans from dad" "No there isnt anything wrong with you" "Yes mom I realize that you want grandchildren" "Yes mom I realize I have a boyfriend" "No mom he doesnt know .....and so on and so forth that had to be the longest conversation of my life and that was just the beginning. I had to then tell the man I have been seeing for the last 7 months of my crazy adulthood that I was in fact lesbian and I couldnt bring myself to try and fool anyone anymore. That conversation I will spare you the details of because not even I want to remember that. I have lost so many friends this week but I have at the same time found myself. I have let out that I am who I am that it is not going to change and that people can either accept me or let me go. Now I know what you are thinking give them time and I will I am not asking for my grandmother who I have not told yet to understand right away because yes she is old and she is a catholic and I just dont see this going over well with her. However I did get the full support right away of my sisters and my father along with my grandma on my dads side because she is the most understanding women in the whole world. Anyways that was just the start of my week. And then when you are finally out and its alright to be that way then you celebrate alright so I didnt celebrate just yet but its not even wednesday yet. I did however find the most amazing lgbt group to spend my friday nights with. Its a place called pride cafe and I owe them my coming out. I have never felt so excpeted anywhere in my life. People like me from all walks of life join together and play cards dance or whatever else in on their minds from 8 until midnight. Its in a church no less. Anyways I know I have been talking forever about nothing but I just am happy that I can finally be me around more then just me. Its the greatest feeling in the world.
Finally all my clothes fit in my closet....
Well hello there everyone. My name is Elizabeth and I am new to all this. I moved here to the big windy city on april the 11 which was about 2 months ago. I dont know anyone or anything about it here yet. So as you read this you will find out what it is like for someone to try and find their sexuality while trying to make a name for themselves in a all to unfamiliar place.
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