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You know for so long ive had this though of a true friend. Some one who is kind, funny and suportive in all aspect of the word. Some of us never find that in our life times and those who do really just dont know how lucky the are. Some time we make mistakes and hurt our friends thinking that we are protecting them , in our eyes. How am i to judge and who are you to judge me. are you perfect have you not done what i ve done. If I am gulty, gulty will be, but it will be for careing about you and trying to protect you. They always say that action speak louder then words, but i guess my action where not loud anought for you to hear them. It hurts to say that the time we spend was waisted, but you know am glad i go to know some one like you, some one true and kind as you. Your where not just a friend you are my brother. For those of you aout there dont take lightly afriend shit for it is verry frigel and weak. So can only go so far

Is it more then just sex ? that what you asked me that night that your body and mine became one. that our skins mixed, and our tounges play with each other. Is more then just sex. Sence the day i saw you thats all i could think about. Just to hear your voice made me smile. The looks you gave me from across the room. the thing you said to me in a funny way knowing that thats exacly wat you meant to say. Is it just sex ? the way my soul wanted yours . not wanting to stop. wishing we would stay in each othere arms for ever. To awake from a dream that seem so real. To know the your untachable, unreachable. To make you mine for all times. To heal your cuts and dry your tears. the way i felt you heart melt when you huged me. how your eyes watered. So close to let your pain go but you took it back, thinkng i dint want it . Thinking im not willing to give my self to you.

Two shall be as one, always protect , always trust , always love

It seems that I always find the right guys int he wrong place or times. Dont you hate when you kill your self looking for some one, the one just for you or the one with the perfect personality, smile, eyes, dick....lol, but when youfind them it to late your moveing away or they are leaveing. You think that youwill never find the one for you. you ask your self why me why do i alway find the right guy right when am moveing on to a new place. i ask my self thjat everytime it happens. I ve meet the right guy lobveing, funny, friendly,lovable just great. I have to leave in months to a new place there no choice. so hard to let him go. it hard cus i know that we need it each other in some kind of way. it hurt to let go no matter how long you know some one it always hurts. it hurt even more when you see some one that looks like him or wears the same colonge and specialy when you get that e mail from him saying that he missed you. I try to keep hiom close to me those few times we are together to make the memories last longer then what they have to. Ty no to fall for him is a mission i am going to fale. Yet i try every day to save him from the paint that we are going to go thru although i knoe it inpossible for that. It hurts to find the right guys in the wrong places

You know some one once told me that people are like trees. you have those who are liefs and then there are those that are like branches and those who are roots. What they dint tell me was that finding out who they where was going to hurt so much. They say love is blind . Is this love that im filling or is it just me not wanting to be alone. Deep in side i long to be with some one but my heart dosnt want to hurt any more. You know sometimes we are so blnded by our pain that when some one come along to show us what love is we are to blind to see it, to hurt to let them in , too afraid to let them get close that we dont see the thing they do for us in till they are saying good bye. I dont want to hurt any more. This whole time what i though i needed it to heal my heart was to be alone and away from everyone. Insted what i needed was to have some one show me that they cared. Some one to tuch me tell me how beutiful I am , To hold me. Why dint i see that now is to late to save it. When will I find the one for me how can i make this pain in my heart go away. How can I stop crying every nite. If any one knows please tell me !!!!

Well where to start ......... been in Japan for the past year and half do to my job.... yes I work LOL. Well if your woundering what i do im n the military. No im not n hte Army or Air Force not even the Coast gards.(Sorry guys you guys arnt just the best) I belong to the few the prode The Marines. Ive been in for two years now and i love it so far Ive meet lots of cool people and seen great places
But it is time for meto come home been far away from my guys and miss them specialy my best friend.
All i pray is that once i go home i have a great well come back party (for those that know me ,know that i love to party hard and long .......lol)

Any ways ths is the first time i try this so i hope i meet lots of grat people on this website so that when i go home i have lots of people to party with well talk to you guys letar

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Angel