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Thursday 9/4/2008

Rock and Slipper on Water

I ran outside today while it was raining. It was soothing. The rain keeps me focused and cool. I actually ran the 4 mile route faster than I've even did.

It's interesting here in the US how not a lot of people like the rain. People here are afraid of getting sick if ever they get a bit wet...they're like cats or something. It's just water. Back in the Philippines I used to play a lot in the rain. During typhoon seasons the street would be filled with water and I would take one of my rubber sandals, stick a rock in it, and throw it on the water. It would look like a toy motorboat. And my sibs and our neighbors would play against each other to see who gets to have their boats glide the farthest...farthest? is that a word?

Heck there was even a point that we didn't care that it was raining ash because of the Mt Pinatubo eruption in the 90s. Those were some muddy months.

Monday 9/1/2008

My life in film

An amazing thing about films that I deeply appreciate and am always passionate about is the way they can connect to me whether that may be in real life or just a fantasy. In all honesty, I live my life vicariously through movies some times. It's a way for me to escape at times, but it as also a way for me to understand, open, and expand my perspective in life. Those films which I deeply connected to in so many levels come from the minds of creative and real people. I know that when I enjoy a film that means that I shared a point of view with the writer. And that is a calming and reassuring thought that there's someone out there who shares the same points of view as I do.

Today is such a nice day so I took a run for a couple of miles to enjoy the weather. After that I decided to go to the Old Orchard mall to browse, shop, and have lunch. But I found myself passing through the theatre, so I stopped and looked. I walked away. But after 20 feet I turned around and bought a ticket to see Vicky Christina Barcelona not fully knowing or remembering what it was all about. I only felt that I wanted to watch the movie. And to my surprise, I loved it more than expected.

What I liked about the movie is how I could see myself, bits and pieces, through each main characters and understand theyre point of view.

Much like Vicky, I tend to be practical because it is the normal thing to do and the best way to fit in the norms of which our society has set up. I have to be prectical and logical because it is a way for me to survive. But when emotions and feelings take over I become weak and confused.

But much of how I feel come from the character Christina. Like her, I am often confused and only know what I don't want. That the materialism of life in which society has bestowed upon has no meaningful value to me. And the categorization and stereotypes that people do are ways to make them feel a sense of inclusion. And it's not right for anyone to judge others or change them for who they are. She is the way she is. And finally, she thinks that pain and suffering are also key components that makes love so strong, mysterious, difficult to comprehend, blissful, and definitely worth taking risks for.

Maria Elena's point of view is one passionate and open point of view which I too definitely share but only too afraid to express at times. She feels extreme emotions and is not afraid to challenge life and love to the fullest potential. But it's too much for her to handle.

And last, Juan Antonio, he sees love as a complex recipe that requires all the ingredients present for it to be able to function in life and relationships. It will not work otherwise if one ingredient is missing even if it is the least important ingredient.

The movie didn't really have an ending...but that's the point. You'll never really know when life ends. You'll never know when the journey stops and all you can do is hope that you find out what youre really looking for and get there, while choosing which direction to go next.

Friday 8/29/2008

VP Pick Sarah Palin

I know the first thing that evetyone say is that she would not be good to run for VP because she's not really that experienced....hello!!! that's the same thing with Obama.

What what shocked me it that McCain is actually smart enough to heat up the competition by picking a woman....something of a half Dream Ticket much like Obama & Biden.

Besides...are people smart enough anyway to question Sarah Palin's qualifications? I just think this is mainly the woman-thing...to get more women votes...to show "change"...to diversify...and to spice up McCain's nomination.

I have a feeling this won't be easy for the Democrats.......

Obama! You better not let me down....I wanted Hillary in the first place!

Though Sarah Palin is drawing women's attention, I'm hoping she isn't gaining their allegiance! Sarah Palin is staunch PRO-LIFE, she is even against abortion in the case of rape or incest. McCain had been looking at pro-choice candidates, like Joe Lieberman and Mitt Romney, but social conservatives reacted with outrage and stole McCain's choice for VP.

Another interesting fact, John McCain had met Sarah Palin, just once, six months ago, before naming her as running mate.

I don't think the Democrats need to bash Sarah Palin, we can trust American women to see past the initial excitement.

Posted by RyanOH on Sunday, 8/31/2008 10:01AM

Internet blogs are a buzz with rumors that John McCain's running mate, Sarah Palin, faked her most recent pregnancy.

Word on the web is that Palin's baby is actually her granddaughter, born to Sarah's daughter.

http://tinyurl.com/5tgwcw

Posted by Chris on Monday, 9/1/2008 7:49AM

Wednesday 8/27/2008

Promotion

My year just got way better. I got promoted at work...usually that means more new responsibilities...In my case, not so much, since I have been doing the responsibilities a year now. I'm so happy! It only says that what I do at work is important and what I have to contribute to the company is well appreciated.

I am already planning for a celebratory weekend..woo hoo!

Congrats on your promotion!

Posted by Chris on Thursday, 8/28/2008 7:54AM

Do us a favor, could you celebrate with your legs closed for once. I don't wanna have to hear about your antics the next night at the boozehounds corner (BERLIN, Sunday Night-hint hint).

Posted by zoozoo6 on Thursday, 8/28/2008 11:06PM

what the heck is a boozehounds corner?

Posted by aray on Friday, 8/29/2008 1:22PM

Monday 8/25/2008

What grinds my gear.

You know what grinds my gear? The fact that when it come to the gay community it is always a small world...but that's not it...I don't mind so much how small it is...but when the gays play along with the whole thing like life is suppose to be some kind of game and rules need to be met in order to things to be okay....THAT grinds my gear.

A friend of mine suddenly comes up to me and tells me that he is dating my X. I know my friend means well and all and he wishes is that I do not have any grudge toward his situation with my X. I appreciate his concern but I'd rather not be involved in that nonsense. Like I am suppose to be jealous or mad at him for being with my X?

I do not own my X/Xs and there's no norm regarding dating a friend's X. It would be immature of me to stop my friend from wanting to date an X of mine. If ever my friend wanted to date my X, that is not for me to control, and I should not have any concern for that. I could always have an opinion but that doesn't mean I have every right to it.

So I just smiled and said "it's okay." And seriously..I don't care. I'm out of the relationship with my X so I have no more to say whether what he wants to do it or not.

Your grinding my gears right now!!!!

Here's what you need to do STOP DATING PEOPLE FROM THE SAME AREA, GO MEET GUYS IN SOME OTHER PART OF TOWN.

IF YOU DATE GUYS EXCLUSIVELY FROM BOYSTOWN YOUR GONNA RUN INTO THE SAME PEOPLE (i'm assuming thats where you met your ex).

I'll never understand why some guys think that BOYSTOWN is a good place to make an intimate non-sexual connection.

They never seem to put 2 and 2 together,
bar or club + alcohol = meaningless connection.

Try meeting guys in non gay areas, take a chance be adventerous, so it turns out he's not gay oh well thats life try again.

Posted by zoozoo6 on Wednesday, 8/27/2008 12:53AM

well that x of mine was from another place...and i have done that...been with someone from minneapolis for 6 months...it was very difficult. but you do have a point there and i do agree.

Posted by aray on Wednesday, 8/27/2008 7:18PM

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